She stood there for so long that she'd lost track of time,
She couldn't turn back,
She wasn't sure which way to turn ahead,
So many paths to choose from,
And yet no direction for her,
Life had brought her to this strange point.

Her feet felt rooted to the ground,
The image she'd conjured in her mind when she'd begun her journey didn't seem to exist anymore.
Had she bargained for this life?
She'd asked herself this question a million times...

Her mind was full of questions,
Unanswered....
She stood at crossroads,
Lost,
Deserted,
All alone,
Her eyes were blurred with her own tears.

She could think no more,
Her mind had gone numb,
No more thoughts,
No more pain,
All that was left was a void in her heart...

It was the silence before the storm,
The Struggle had just begun...

Did she really want this...

She'd fought with all, struggled her way through the toughest phase of her life, not listening to the frantic pleas of her body.. She kept going in vain. Hoping to see light some day. There was that fear always lingering deep within. Was this the right path, was it what she really wanted.. The path she'd chosen was where she couldn't even turn back.. Back to the safety of her previous life. It would be so easy to withdraw back into her shell and never try things in life. Was she being a coward. Or was she never brave. Suddenly it all seemed like charade. She knew she had to walk all the way, all alone. And yet that flicker of hope still remained. She knew that dawn would finally break... But this night seemed to stretch forever. She knew she couldn't give up. But it would be so easy to do exactly that. Just once....

A new beginning....

Things have finally started looking up for her. Life's going to change drastically for her...The countdown has begun. She would leave for a new life within a week..

One look at her and it is so evident on her face how she is feelin at the moment. She is a bundle of nerves. She is going through so many emotions at the same time.She's nervous, jittery, apprehensive, scared worried, skeptical....The list is neverending.And yet, she is content. A wave of calmness has come over her. She is finally at peace. She is going home.

It is still difficult for her to believe that things have worked out for her the way she wanted them to. There is something unreal about the entire episode.

Its a transition period for her. Moving from a proctective shell to a new world all by herself is not easy for her.Yet she is ready to accept the challenge. She has always been a fighter...

Finally it is a new beginning for her..

May god give her courage and strength to come out with flying colours..

Patience
A simple word..
Yet so difficult to implement.
Whenever i lose my cool ,
I am always told to have patience.
One day life is in full swing and action,
things are moving smoothly,
And the next day suddenly things come to a halt.
For a few seconds you feel everything is over,
all your efforts have gone down the drain,
There is nothing left..
You had tried everything to make it work,
no stone was left unturned,
and then suddenly you hear a voice from deep within,
Have patience.
Things would happen the way you want them to,
Just believe in them ,
Give it some more time.
You have put in so much time and effort into it,
you tried with complete faith and dedication,
your dreams would come true,
Have Patience.
Life is not that bad after all,
give it a chance,
it will prove itself to be your best mate,
All it wants is your trust and some Patience,
so just believe in it and go with its flow.

Mom and Dad

I was born under your protective wings,
You always fulfilled all my whims and fancies,
You said I brought with me good luck for you,
I was your star, your baby.

And then life took a strange turn,
I became the cause of your misery,
Endless days and nights,
You suffered in silence,
But never uttered a word to me.

You supported me through a very rough patch in my life,
And now you are giving me all you ever had to fulfill my dream,
It is a big risk you are taking, I know.

But its a promise...
I will never let you down,
Deep within my dreams are your dreams,
I will make them come true,
take my word,
I will make it happen..
Trust me..

We will all be together one day,
This seperation will be short-lived,
Our family would be one again,
I will make it happen.

Just remember one thing -
I love both of you more than anything in my life..

Life is so strange...

Why does life test me at every step,
Is it my fate to struggle forever,
Why don't simple things come easy to me,
Why is life always like a battlefeild for me,
Why the fight for every little desire in life...

Why do I think so much,
Why is my mind always in a dilemma,
There is a battle within me,
And the saddest part is that i can't even place my finger on what the problem is...

Thats you...

It was a tough step you took,
A very brave stand I know,
You have left us all,
Mom,Dad,Bro,Sis, All of us.

You needed to move on,
To live your life,
The storm has passed,
Your life has finally started.

But mine has stopped,
FOREVER...
Why did you love me so much,
Why did i take you for granted,
When both of us knew that you finally had to leave...

I can't live without you,
You were my life,
My mentor,
You were everything for me.

Winds have stopped blowing,
There is no music left in my life,
But I will get used to it,
I will have to learn to live without you.
I am your FIGHTER...

Your baby will go on,
No matter what it takes,
I wish for your happiness from the bottom of my heart.

Make it work sis,
For my sake and yours,
Especially for Dad...

Always remember..
I love you alot,
I am always with you...

Sister, Its all because of you ...

I was nothing when you came into my life...
Neither a child nor an adult,
Just someone merely existing,
Just someone always trying to please others,
Never knowing what I wanted in life.

And then my life changed...
You made me realise what i was all about,
I was no more a child.
You guided me through that transition period from a child to an adult,
You are my light, my inspiration,
You are everything for me.

Despite everything you were going through...
You always supported me,
You helped me meet myself,
The world knew me because of you,
Suddenly all the darkness of my life vanished,
It was as if a window suddenly opened in my mind,
You are my guide, my mentor.

Now that you need me...
I feel so torn between everyone else and you,
You made me swear not to support for your cause,
You have no choice but to shun me out of your life,
You always protected me from this cruel world,
Will I ever be able to live with this burden on my soul,
Will I ever be able to repay you.

How will I ever repay you...
Even if I try for my entire life it would not be enough for all that you have done for me,
I wish to do so much for you,
I pray to God to give me a chance atleat once in my life,
Always remember I am always there for you.
I love you..

ME

"Who am I ?" is a question I ask myself from to dawn to dusk,
What is it that I am made of that distinguishes me frm others,
Or am I just one of the crowd...

What have I accomplished in life that makes me reflect back and feel proud of myself,
Am I a fighter,
Am i a survivor,
Am I stronger than others...
That despite all the crap I face in life I again wake up the next morning and go on...
Who gives me the strength to believe that life is not all that bad,
Where does the hope come from that things would change one day...

I am drowning in this dilemma,
Are there no answer to these questions,
Will I never find peace within and outside...

Will I ever find myself....

Love,
What is it? Why does it exist?
It's a beautiful feeling yet, we don't realise the importance of a person till he is gone,
Why do people become addicted to a person and ruin their lives,
Can anyone be more important than your own SELF that life stops when the person is gone..
Why is my question..
Can't we just accept life the way it is and go with its flow without questioning it,
For once cant we let go...
There is a famous saying ,"If you love someone, don't hold him back, if he is yours he would come back, if not, then he was never meant to be yours".
Why dont we let go and move on...
Why??

Dreams

A new hope every day
A renewed desire all the way
Is what wakes me up and gives me a nudge
To go ahead and do my bit

I try and try with a new vigour
And yet defeat is all i fear
Dreams are dreams after all
They are far and dear

And one day they are shattered
As if they never existed
You are reminded you were never meant to dream
Because dreams are meant for others and not you

And then you wake up all alone
Being alone is your fate